You're the only one( Who knows the real me)

 I sat down at my desk with purpose today

With every intention to write you to say

I wish that we had more time together

I thought we were destined to live forever.

Seeing you leave just turned my life so blue

When you said goodbye, my heart left too

I need you here, don't want to be free

Your the only one who knows the real me

The roses You bought now in full bloom

Sending sweet thoughts and love through my room

I’m looking out at this mornings bright sun

"Hope it’s shining for you and your missions soon done" 

The garden swing hangs silent since you’ve been gone

How we’d cuddle together, every summer so long

Everything is empty and I'm missing you

I wish you were here" Not with the chosen few"

Seeing you leave just turned my life so blue

When you said goodbye, my heart left too

I need you here, don't want to be free

Your the only one who knows the real me

I hate the war that made you join up and leave

It chokes my emotion" I can hardly breath

I miss your voice, those songs you sing

You are my rock, My one true king

I believe in your magic, cannot get enough

Tenderness could turn into words so tough

Dreaming the days away not sleeping in bed

Thoughts of you and all that you said

I’m wishing and hoping you come back soon

I find it so hard while you’re with the platoon

Seeing you leave just turned my life so blue

When you said goodbye, my heart left too

I need you here, don't want to be free

Your the only one who knows the real me

I watched from the window as the mailman appeared

My Tea cup shaking as he neared

He rang the bell I didn't hesitate , opened the door to hear of my fate

My heart skipped a beat, My body felt numb

Fearing this moment would one day come

The feeling I felt as I was handed the post

When excepting the mail " white as a ghost

 

The postmark and stamp from military

Sent three weeks ago " I dropped to my knee's

With a smile on my face " and a tear in my eye

Your on your way home " I said with a sigh"

Seeing you leave just turned my life so blue

When you said goodbye, my heart left too

I need you here, don't want to be free

Your the only one who knows the real me

Are You Busy?

 Pass me that pen " I wanna write her again"

To tell her I love her and missing my friend

I'll try to explain how I hurt from the pain

I feel like a loser who's going insane

We had so many years, found laughter and tears

Why did you leave, be the cause of my grief

Can we sit down, grab lunch in town

It would be good just to have you around

Are You busy? Are You well? please release me from hell

Have you anything to say? just write back and tell

Your still in my thoughts my special best friend

I will cherish my memory of you till the end 

I don't belong to a circle of real friends now

Keeping myself to myself but hate it somehow

I really miss your smile and your funny ways

I'm only guessing but do you miss those days

So many times lately I miss you so much

Days without your soft tender touch

Looking into your eyes and seeing loves bright light

Those cosey winters and warm summer nights

So will you ring me or write or email my friend

Just to let me know " This wont be the end"

A message of hope would do the world of good

I'll cross my fingers. pray and touch wood

Are You busy? Are You well? please release me from hell

Have you anything to say? just write back and tell

Your still in my thoughts my special best friend

I will cherish my memory of you till the end 

So many times lately I miss you so much

Days without your soft tender touch

Looking into your eyes and seeing loves bright light

Those cosey winters and warm summer nights

This pens starting to run a little dry

The black ink turned blue just like your eyes

This ball point wont last no more than 4 words

I don't have another " It seems so absurd"

Say hello to your Ma, "she is a friend"

My pen has now come "to a sad bitter end".....                                

Not Coming Back/Saying Goodbye

I'm just a little disappointed by the way you feel

You say its nothing and no big deal

But I disagree and need to react

As to why your leaving and not coming back

Yes we tended to ignore those carefree times

When we were guilty of cheating crimes

Those agree to disagree moments and crocodile tears

Those jealous tantrums over many years

I thought we were honest and would never lie

But now it seems your saying goodbye

Acting as if its natural, Not much different to natures call

You could have said if having second thoughts

Of how an open relationship has its faults

By now we could have gotten over it

But now it seems its festered bit by bit

"Please don't go" stay and sort this out

It used to be swings and roundabouts

We decided together and set limits

To stay together forever as free spirits 

Emotions run high some of the time

But you gotta know when to draw the line

Love is one thing and surely defined

By our hearts and never our mixed up minds

So don't leave me baby, go out and return

I promise you my lesson is learned

One thing for sure that would tare me apart

Is you leaving me and breaking my heart

You could have said if having second thoughts

Of how an open relationship has its faults

By now we could have gotten over it

But now it seems its festered bit by bit

I'm just a little disappointed by the way you feel

You say its nothing and no big deal

But I disagree and need to react

As to why your leaving and not coming back

Not coming back no no not coming back

It don't sit right and that's a fact

Don't leave me honey "Stay with me"

I love you babe "Don't wanna be free

Plain Jane (The Girl of My Dream)

Waiting on a Bus in the freezing cold

Been standing here so long, feels like I'm getting old

I wish I had a reason to leave the queue

Glad I didn't as just seen you

Your just like the girl I saw in my dream

The one that was tempting "you know what I mean"

I never realized that dreams came true

Rubbing my eyes I guess they really do

Should I stand and wait my turn in the queue

Or should I move to try and talk to you

My predicament leaves me with no choice

When I heard your soft and sexy voice

You were talking with a guy "I had to know why"

So I moved a little closer to catch your eye

I heard you say that you liked to dance

I could not believe it " This could be my chance" 

We can dance all night Jive and swing

Rock n Roll is really my favourite thing

But how can I be forward "It would be so rude"

Should I wait on the bus and be glad I queued

I began to think " Had my luck run out"

When all of a sudden I heard the guy shout

See ya later !"Nice to see you again"

And maybe catch up but don't know when

My heart all of a sudden had slowed down

Knowing that she was single and new to the town

I heard you say that you liked to dance

I could not believe it " This could be my chance" 

We can dance all night Jive and swing

Rock n Roll is really my favorite thing

The Bus pulled up and I jumped the Queue

Saying hey can I come sit with You

She gave me that smile "You know the one from my dream

My face was a picture " I hoped she were keen

I paid her fare and continued to stare

Looking at this beauty with the long black hair

I said Forgive me so what is your name?

She said to me "oh its just plain Jane"

You aint plain I can tell you right now

When I saw you at the stop "I thought Wow"

Would You go to the local hop with me

Oh I don't know" We'll just have to see"

I heard you say that you liked to dance

Well so do I " This could be our chance" 

We can dance all night Jive and swing

Rock n Roll is really my favorite thing

Come on Jane Just say yes "Its Friday night I'll dress to impress

Well if you pick me up at 7 then maybe I guess

I betcha look cute in a satin dress

Just say yes yes yes yes yes

Your parents can look me up and down

It don't mean nothin as your we're new in town

Well see you Friday as this is my stop

We will have a ball at the Lindy Hop

We can dance all night Jive and swing

Rock n Roll is really my favorite thing

Jive with me "Jane take that chance"

Take me to heaven C'mon lets dance

She said its gonna be great so its 7 at mine

Promise me we'll have a good time

We can be together the perfect team

Just be there Jane the girl of my Dream

Girl of my dream don't break my heart

Promise me we'll never part

Jive with Me Jane take this chance

Take me to Heaven come on lets dance

Oh yeah oh yeah come on lets dance

Lets hold hands kiss n romance

Promise me we'll never part

Girl of my dream don't break my heart

Mr Cool

 I don't know what you want from me

And doubt I ever will

I don't know what your looking for

Are you getting a cheap thrill

Seeing if you can test my nerve while digging underground

Or just waiting on that moment when my limits can be found

I wasn't born with a silver spoon hanging from my mouth

Don't need a compass to point me north or south

I could spell, reed, and write before the age of six

I can find fresh water with willow dowsing sticks

You'll have to get up early before the sun can rise

Try singing with the birds to pull wool over my eyes

You wont get the better of me as I am Mister Cool

I can see you coming and aint nobody's fool

You wont get the better of me by playing silly games

You wont fit me up, I wont take the blame

You aint getting the better of me, Not one little bit

So please submit, give in and just quit

Yeah you aint getting the better of me, Not one little bit

Don't waste your time while shouting out those evil lies

I have people watching you " your so called friends are spies

They tell me everything, every hate speech you announce

Feel the weight of my wrath every pound and every ounce

The rock of truth will sit upon your tales and your lies

The boulder of guilt will forever blind your eyes

Take just a minute to ask yourself one thing

Why appear like a butterfly? but like a wasp you wanna sting

You wont get the better of me by playing silly games

You wont fit me up, I wont take the blame

You aint getting the better of me, Not one little bit

So please submit, give in and just quit

Yeah you aint getting the better of me, Not one little bit

Yeah I can see you coming and aint nobody's fool

You wont get the better of me as I am Mister Cool

I don't know what you want from me

And doubt I ever will

I don't know what your looking for

Exhausted by your lies and damnation overkill

Yeah I can see you coming and aint nobody's fool

You wont get the better of me as I am Mister Cool

Checkmate Blues

Have you abandoned the game

I'm just asking, It seems such a shame

Raising the white flag for you and your king

Throwing the towel into the checkerboard ring

Are you a pawn disguised as a clown

Is that a grimace or maybe a frown

There is only one way to ever beat me

But that wont be today no no "Believe Me"

Take your time their is no great rush

I'm patient amid the silence hush hush

I'll sit here quietly and wait my turn

The flame of my candle still lovingly burns

I'll light another with a flickering flame

While you decide the next move in your game

Moving a bishop a rook or your knight

Extinguish those nerves or fade like the light?

Wake me if I should fall asleep 

Nudge me my turn while counting sheep 

Keep me posted, if I'm under attack

I cannot afford to lose the shirt off my back

Wow you moved and now have me in check

I feel like a fool a physical wreck

Oh dear oh dear so what happens now

Your  check mate plan I cannot allow

Gonna take my time as in no great rush

I will be patient and silent hush hush

I'll sit here and wait, to ponder my turn

The flame of my candle still lovingly burns

Queen takes knight and traps my rook

In your haste my Queen overlooked

You are now trapped as I move away

Your King still holding my bishop at bay

Nowhere to go your blunder will cost

Check mate of your king " Your game is now lost"

The position of pawn and my brave knight

No where to move black square or white

Take your time as in no great rush

I will be patient and silent hush hush

I'll sit here and wait to figure my turn

The flame of my candle still lovingly burns

Are you raising the white flag on behalf of your King

Surrendering again?  I'm just asking

Will you give in to my knowledge and plan

Catch me out and win a game if you can

Have you abandoned the battle and game

I'm just asking, It seems such a shame

Are you raising the white flag on behalf of your king

Throwing the towel into the checker board ring

Check mate check mate its never to late

Pass me the trophy as I seal your fate

Check mate check mate its never to late

Pass me the trophy as I seal your fate

Take your time as in no great rush

I will be patient and silent hush hush

I'll sit here and wait to figure my turn

The flame of my candle still lovingly burns

Cobbald Path Blues

 Walking cobbled paths alone in my head

For many years I have feared all the dread

Will I have a choice? what's out there for me?

Or sail for miles on a rough stormy sea.

Tired days have been endless and nights cold and long 

While all around me a wicked echo and song 

A swirling heavy darkness ahead in my sight

Blurring my vision from brightness and light .

Wherever journeys take my hopeful heart

How ever this power tears life apart

It always finds me left alone in the dark

The wicked will always attack like a shark

This isn’t the first time I’ve stood on these paths

Where my footprints look heavier than they did in the past

I’ll travel the distance, gain belief in myself

Push onward and upward, finding my heart on the history shelf

Which path will I choose from the ones up ahead

When every direction is darkness and dread

I may take the wild one that angels have fled

Every signpost repeating words I have said

Wherever journeys take my hopeful heart

How ever this power tears life apart

It always finds me left alone in the dark

The wicked will always attack like a shark

I’m lost once again I look back where I’ve been

Only to find that I’m still in a dream

The sun hits my eyes, am I nearing the end

Here in the light ,on paths that won’t bend

Then the alarm clock is ringing

Dreams no longer displayed

A colorful vision has started to fade

I’m staring up at the ceiling so white

While thinking out loud reality bites

Wherever journeys take my hopeful heart

How ever this power tears life apart

It always finds me left alone in the dark

The wicked will always attack like a shark

Back to reality , the illusion still played

Feeling the weight of the choice never made

Here in the world, the same people, same face

My mind has been frozen ,now knowing my place

These times that I spend alone in my head

The darkness that covers me with all of its dread

I thought waking up would make things more clear

But daylight won’t wash away the darkness and fear

Wherever journeys take my hopeful heart

How ever this power tears life apart

It always finds me left alone in the dark

The wicked will always attack like a shark

I spin in circles in darkness and light

I wonder if ever I’ll win this long fight

Loosing my grip and chasing my ghost

I just hope I keep the people I love the most.

Yeah while Loosing my grip and chasing my ghost

I just hope I keep the people I love the most.